iRez.me Art | Culture | Activism | Identity Lizzy • Hanna • Dita • Xue • ElfkaTumblr (3.0; @vaneeesa)http://vaneeesa.com/<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/feb56042ea61efec825d7c5fb53079fe/tumblr_mmzsk3ZvCa1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#KeyWest #Florida #2003 Fiona and I were wintering in Florida. We met this guy Fross Maruti. He had this thing “The Free #Portrait #Studio”And he made this #pastel of me. After everything that happened I was sure he was some kind of #scammer. What did he want? A #Date? #Money? #Drugs? It was inconceivable to me that someone could do something nice just to be nice and not for some other #motive. I didn’t really get it, but he was probably the most straightforward person I’ve ever met. I guess he cashed in big on the #dotcoms or something, and he was really just doing what he loved. He had a shop. You came and hung out. Or you didn’t. I had been so #burned and so hurt because of my #innocence and #naïveté. And I vowed never to be so stupid and so taken advantage of again. And then I met this simple, honest, #generous guy. And I wasn’t capable of believing him. I wasn’t capable of taking things for the simple beauty of what they were.</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50721841381http://vaneeesa.com/post/50721841381Sat, 18 May 2013 13:43:15 +0200dotcomspastelgenerousdrugsmoneyfloridamotive2003scammerstudioinnocencedateportraitburnednaïvetékeywest<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/b126c01f635fe33be811fbc239b15626/tumblr_mmyuthnwcT1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Whatever you do, #DON’T #FOLLOW #ME! I know it might sound like a clever way of trying to get you to follow me, but it isn’t. We’re all so #obsessed with “follow me” that #meaningless follows and #goingViral become a #substitute for #real #substance, a substitute for actually being alive. I could care less who or what you follow, but follow something #real, and follow it for real.</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50685689946http://vaneeesa.com/post/50685689946Sat, 18 May 2013 01:34:29 +0200merealsubstancedonobsessedmeaninglessgoingviralfollowsubstitute<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/085c14a53bd889b17d0016799ac2b801/tumblr_mmytbzRrzv1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#Rotterdam #2008. #Cosmologists debate whether the #universe will end in a #bang or a #whimper. My marriage to Mark definitely ended in a whimper. We never fought, we never argued, we never really anything at all… We just drifted ever farther and farther and farther away… In the end it wasn’t so much a #divorce as it was just #dissolving into nothingness. Only the faintest #vapor of a #marriage where once a relationship had existed. I didn’t blame Mark for the whole Pennyroyal tragedy. It totally was not his fault in any way. And yet somehow I guess I did blame him. I felt cut off from him. Or from myself. Or maybe both. I started to dye my hair #black. I know we were technically still #married, but we really never saw each other anymore. This photo is from two years before our actual divorce, but already I felt so very very distant from him. I think being in an empty marriage is somehow worse than being alone. Being alone has a sort of honesty to it that I think you can accept. But in an empty marriage everything about your existence just feels somehow #fake. You don’t really feel on any meaningful level. You don’t really feel like you’re alive anymore.</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50683515539http://vaneeesa.com/post/50683515539Sat, 18 May 2013 01:02:22 +0200fakedissolvingvaporuniversecosmologistswhimperbangmarriedmarriagedivorceblack2008rotterdam<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/46511fdf899d17928c8a956dda2ee333/tumblr_mmyd4tAJmz1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#TheHague #2005. The whole Field Marshal Pennyroyal thing left me pretty #scarred for some time. I didn’t want to do #karaoke for a while, although I did after a little bit go back to it. I was afraid because my #singing had gotten me in so much #trouble and caused me so much #pain. But what I realized is that your #voice is never your #enemy. Sometimes, if you #sing #loud enough, your voice can be heard by evil ears, but your voice is not your enemy, it’s those ears. And maybe in a way my real enemy was my own neediness. I didn’t have to be so susceptible to #Pennyroyal, but I think there were just such holes in my life that I craved the attention. If #breathing is #life, then singing is the #artForm that is closest to life itself. I’ll never have a #rockstar voice, and I’m fine with that now. I don’t care who hears me, or if anyone hears me, because I try as best as I can, to only sing for myself now. I don’t want to have a big #heroic voice, I just want to have my own small, #honest voice. I sing because I am alive, nothing more.</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50661159174http://vaneeesa.com/post/50661159174Fri, 17 May 2013 19:12:29 +0200enemylifevoicepainrockstarloudartformhonestbreathingthehaguepennyroyal2005singtroublescarredsingingkaraokeheroic<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/23c900b3057d5d147cc479bf61daa752/tumblr_mmxwsr93Ax1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>And then things started to get really #weird. It all became a big #downward #spiral. @Fionablah came to visit, and we did #karaoke – which was super fun, at least for a while – But then we met this #FieldMarshal @Pennyroyal, who was pretty charismatic, but I think she #drugged us. Pennyroyal kidnapped us and held us captive in a tiny closet. She barely fed us, screamed at us constantly, and made us do things. They changed my name to #Tania, and Fiona’s name to #Tonya. I was made to #rob #banks, and Fiona was made to #assault #iceSkaters. God what a #horrible #nadir for such previously privileged #princesses.</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50645778022http://vaneeesa.com/post/50645778022Fri, 17 May 2013 13:19:39 +0200taniadownwardiceskatersdruggedrobprincessesspiralkaraoketonyaassaulthorriblebanksfieldmarshalweirdnadir<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/5be3d490bc0b38d49bd447e22a58f7dc/tumblr_mmr9fr38wE1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><big>The Crappy Job of Being Banksy’s Girlfriend</big></p><blockquote><p><br/><em>Banksy Banksy Banksy! He’s a genius! He’s so mysterious! I wonder who he is?</em>Bla bla bla! That’s…</p></blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/05/13/the-crappy-job-of-being-banksys-girlfriend/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50366322718http://vaneeesa.com/post/50366322718Mon, 13 May 2013 23:09:27 +0200BanksyBanksy&039;s GirlfriendBoris JohnsonHouse of McQueenLois LaneMaskPseudonymSecret IdentitysliderStreet ArtSuperman<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/95ad9317bf616a7a82148acb1ca42a57/tumblr_mmr56ngShe1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>OMG Sisters can be so psycho sometimes!</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50359453777http://vaneeesa.com/post/50359453777Mon, 13 May 2013 21:37:35 +0200fiona blaylockmaggieblacrazySisterinstagramrant<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/63178284ed790fe0d0fa862369e48118/tumblr_mmlvu8KOMe1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><big>#vb131</big></p><blockquote><p>Vanessa Bartlett, track star</p> <br/>Straight from the London 2012 Games to your PC or Mobile, British track…</blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/05/10/vb131/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50121967309http://vaneeesa.com/post/50121967309Sat, 11 May 2013 01:27:44 +0200304016Chester Half MarathonInstagramRace Day TrackingsliderSt. Mungo&039;sVanessa Bartlett<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/551bb097338cba3ec1f7de51faac7ef2/tumblr_mmj63xhvFl1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Avatar Blogger Gymnasium @LEA11 in Second Life! Get your avatar in the best shape of your virtual life while you read blogs from across the multiverse or work on your own next post!</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/50008087985http://vaneeesa.com/post/50008087985Thu, 09 May 2013 14:16:45 +0200xlAlice in CornellandLEA11linden endowment for the artsAvatar Blogger<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/d07cf35130f2362cbdabf5ebcb3fa296/tumblr_mmiqt1wt241r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><big>June is Avatar Blogger Month!</big></p><blockquote><p>Avatar Bloggers Unite! By proclamation of, well, me, <em>June is Avatar Blogger month!</em></p> <p><strong>WHO:</strong><br/>Any Avatar…</p></blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/05/09/june-is-avatar-blogger-month/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49997949191http://vaneeesa.com/post/49997949191Thu, 09 May 2013 08:46:13 +0200Alice in CornellandAvatar BloggerBadgesChallengeLEA11Linden Endowment for the ArtsNewbie Blogger InitiativePartysliderTreadmill Desk<blockquote><p>(Diary #39 – Mom’s Instagrams of me ‘n Fiona in ballet clothes)<br/><a href="http://irez.me/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/FionaShow1.jpg"><img src="http://irez.me/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/FionaShow1-503x400.jpg" alt="Sepia toned image of a sofa in the center of a room, with a young girl lying unconscious on the floor in front of the sofa, and with vintage nude photographs hung on the walls of the gallery"/></a></p> <p><em>The Blaylock Family Exposed.</em> Curated by Fiona Blaylock. Gallery Fiona, New Toulouse.</p> <br/>   <p>You know how agent 007 has a license to kill? Yeah. I think my sister has a license to piss off. I was…</p></blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/04/30/fiona-blaylock-naked-art-show-raided-by-ntpd/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49248182693http://vaneeesa.com/post/49248182693Tue, 30 Apr 2013 10:49:23 +02001977197819791982198319841985BalletCape TownCastriesFiona BlaylockMagdalena Guerrero BlaylockNew ToulouseNYCPointe ShoessliderSt. LuciaToe ShoesWashington DC<blockquote><p>Saturday’s Memory Box Workshop @LEA11 had 5 intrepid participants who thought about ways to bring the images, words, sounds, movement of virtual life into keepsakes that evoke a virtual sense of touch or a sort of virtual corporeality.</p> <p><strong>P A R T I C I P A N…</strong></p></blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/04/28/memory-box-workshop-lea11/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49104678752http://vaneeesa.com/post/49104678752Sun, 28 Apr 2013 19:26:34 +0200Alice in CornellandEsparanza FreeseLEA11Linden Endowment for the ArtsMemory BoxReneeIlene SpiritWeaversliderWorkshopxs<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/72d1e68abf0676bebc4575e172ce13f9/tumblr_mlxf45zW7k1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#lea11 #aliceincornelland #memorybox</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49023732014http://vaneeesa.com/post/49023732014Sat, 27 Apr 2013 20:24:05 +0200lea11aliceincornellandmemoryboxxs<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/6541891a6ab00f5810f749b05469c490/tumblr_mlxezzZjf71r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#lea11 #aliceincornelland #memorybox</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49023553480http://vaneeesa.com/post/49023553480Sat, 27 Apr 2013 20:21:35 +0200lea11aliceincornellandmemoryboxxs<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/a16070a46fe49779b5ee49fb97134b21/tumblr_mlxdh17dN71r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#reneellenespiritweaver #lea11 #aliceincornelland #memorybox</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49021200449http://vaneeesa.com/post/49021200449Sat, 27 Apr 2013 19:48:37 +0200reneellenespiritweaverlea11aliceincornellandmemoryboxxs<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/383b7e2b08642dca8bb65f043bfa48de/tumblr_mlxceaIO3F1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>#esparanzafreese #lea11 #memorybox #aliceincornelland</p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49019538841http://vaneeesa.com/post/49019538841Sat, 27 Apr 2013 19:25:22 +0200lea11aliceincornellandmemoryboxesparanzafreesexs<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/a8ee5c2b85002682b59a28dab1276873/tumblr_mlx7k3LBtZ1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><big>Haiku Speedbuild #2</big></p><blockquote><p>This week we’re at the just announced LEA11 (Linden Endowment for the Arts) project Alice in…</p></blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/03/10/haiku-speedbuild-2-2/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/49012183496http://vaneeesa.com/post/49012183496Sat, 27 Apr 2013 17:40:51 +0200Alice in CornellandAmi TamuraBeth GriffenhagenDJ HarawayFafner HofmannGina BroonoHaiku for the Single GirlLEA11Linden Endowment for the ArtsVirtial Artists Alliancexs<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/335977d16e5b924d9f865ccea18cf6c5/tumblr_mlu3yyvy6F1r47b1zo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><big>How to stage a dance production in Second Life</big></p><blockquote><p>Romeo and Juliet Poster</p> <p>What started as a crazy idea around a kitchen table in early February is…</p></blockquote><p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/04/25/how-to-stage-a-dance-production-in-second-life/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/48887194515http://vaneeesa.com/post/48887194515Fri, 26 Apr 2013 01:30:34 +0200canary beckSecond Lifesliderxs“Tumblr is 4chan 4girls”http://vaneeesa.com/post/48113451812http://vaneeesa.com/post/48113451812Tue, 16 Apr 2013 12:54:52 +0200xs<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/34f2a8b684cc509c683a409a30da5559/tumblr_ml9gerIQPF1r47b1zo1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><big>Slapping My Snotty Sister</big></p> <blockquote> <p>My stupid sister Fiona opened an art gallery featuring pix of <em>OUR FAMILY NAKED!?</em>Is she stoopid?…</p> </blockquote> <p><a href="http://irez.me/2013/04/14/slapping-my-snotty-sister/">View Post</a></p>http://vaneeesa.com/post/47978594966http://vaneeesa.com/post/47978594966Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:49:00 +0200xs